There are a lot of things happening these few days. I can't express how pissed off I am. I don't really care about what others think, what others want to say. I just have to accountable to myself, and that is all that matters. People can go fuck themselves or whatever for all I care, I don't give a damn.

I got into some shit recently. I'm still waiting for the results. It depends, not on me though. Sigh. Oh well, there is nothing to be done other than wait. So I'm not going to care about this already. As I've mentioned, social networking and whatever that people post online is not safe. Who knows some weird psycho stalks your blog or whatever? So kids shouldn't be so dumb to post all sorts of rubbish online, you might just get into trouble with your school or whatever, it only depends if they are going to be anal or not.

I'm really sick of Singapore, and Singapore school's screwed system. I want to go abroad and study, but my mum doesn't really think that is a good idea. It depends if I want to spend 2 more grueling years in my current school which is RP, being unhappy about almost everything and put a toll on my mental health. Why not? I was thinking of going to Korea. I might have to work to repay my CPF study loan and earn money before I can apply for the school as well. By the time I finished, I'd probably graduated from RP (if I did not quit school). Which is moronic.

If the remaining of the semester doesn't turn well, I really hope I'd get into some freak accident and die or something. Life sucks, being human sucks, subjected to other humans' views sucks as well. Well, I hope everything would just fucking get over with it. Why must my life be so dramatic? Why? Maybe there are people out there waiting for me to snap, break down and fucking commit suicide or something? Who really knows? Those that are sick in the mind, probably enjoying watching others' misery play like a movie before their eyes.

I'm so annoyed that I don't even know what I'm typing. If time would turn back, I wouldn't change much, I only hope I studied for O levels so I don't have to end up in RP. People told me that the school is okay, not that bad. And I'm that naive to believe them. Even though I very much appreciate the air-conditioned environment, but it's as if they didn't turn in on, it's so hot everyday, what? I'm not paying enough school fees for you to lower the temperature? Worse still, stuck in a classroom, with windows that can't be opened, air-conditioned campus. Just let me die. Even when you need some fresh air, you couldn't obtain it.

The latecoming and whatever UT system is as screwed up. Daily grades as well. Your life is determined by how capable you are of sucking up, in other words, boot licking. Apparently, you can say that I'm stubborn, or I refuse to lower myself to these kind of actions. By not talking loudly in class, or being "enthusiastic" gives you a bad grade. Most probably a C. Nice right? Even when you're more active than you usually are, I suppose the facilitators are blind. I've been getting a lot of Cs and everything. I'd probably fail my modules this semester as well. I have no idea why as well.

If neverland was real, I hope Peter Pan brings me there. I don't want to grow up, just let me forever be secondary 4. Where fun is at its peak. Not like now where you have to worry about miscellaneous things which wouldn't even make any significant changes. This is how fucked up life is.

Today, I don't intend to even attempt my DMA work. I'm not in the mood. Since I'm not in the mood, I don't think I'd even want to go school tomorrow, or the rest of the week. Who cares if it's the last lesson of the module for 2010? I don't care. It'd be the best if it's the last day of school for my years in RP. I'd never lay a step in RP after I graduate, I swear on my life. This is how determine I am, and this is how much I hate the school.